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★ PROFILE.



vannieser

Married at 22
A mother at 23
And loving it.

Why? Because i married someone who makes me truly happy.

And this blog is dedicated to everyone i love.



vannieser@live.com



★ HISTORY
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
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June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
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November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2014

★ Sunday, August 31, 2008 AT 3:30 PM

i am going crazy now.
i hate studying, i hate it to the core.
i freaking HATE STUDYING!
ahh!

this module is KILLING ME,
STATISTIC SUCKSSHIT.

i'm sorry if you love stats, i did not mean to offend you.
i just CANNOTTTT TANK!
freakfreakfreakfreak.

too many things happening this week.
driving me nuts, driving me crazy.
especially my school work.
i hate numbers, i hate maths.

my sundays are boring.
i do nothing but stay at home.
like htw.
seriously.

stay home, and what do i do?
STUDY.
freak kaerf.


when i see 2 person, emotionally unstable.
quarrel fight.
and see the process of them get back together.
brings a smile to my face.
comes and thank me, i say it's not me.
she gave you a second chance.
thank her.
i'm glad i can help.
but after everything, it's you guys.
who love each other deeply.
don't make the same mistake again,
now or forever.
now or gone.
treasure each other.
for life.


i will always love You,
i'll never leave You.
i'm Yours, i'm all Yours.
You're the best.
i want You forever.
i need You in my life.
nothing without You.
more than a want, it's a need.
love You more than anything else.
You're the one i need.
iloveYou
i cried myself to sleep

★ Saturday, August 30, 2008 AT 11:59 PM
joke of the day.

Syl and me saw Jing Quan at the bus stop.
we were heading to the same place,
went over together.
Jing Quan went off to pick his brother up and head to family dinner.
i was with syl together with Kanapon and Mr King.
they were heading to bugis, while i was heading to aljunied to meet yeeyee.
met yee and went for family dinner. at May's.
reached with yeeyee, sat down.
drink my tea and stuff.
then i look towards the door.
and guess what?!

I SAW JING QUAN WALKING INTO THE RESTAURANT.

i was shock beyond words.

me: JING QUAN!
JQ: huh!?
me: OMGOMGOMGOGMOMG.
JQ: this is soo coincidental lah!
me: TOTALLY. OMGOMG.

hahaha. greatest joke of the day.

okay, after dinner went home.

sis and me had a wild time together.
took my tripod and cammie out to the streets.
just my house outside, to get some shots taken. shots we've always wanted to take.






okay, i realise something?
it's that all prof or lecturers likes to do 1 thing.
if the class cannot understand the graph or image or whatever.
he/she will grow it BIGGER.
understand? no?
nevermind.

prof: so do everyone understand???
everyone: ehhh ermmm hmm noooooo.
prof: OKAY, i'm gonna draw the graph AGAIN. and this time, i'm gonna draw it BIGGER.

okay, seriously, tell me, does it really work?
honestly. does it?
cause i don't think it does to me.
use the wall to draw, and does that mean everyone will understand everything?
hmmmmmmmmm.

i'm still wondering

i want You, i need You.
I love You

★ AT 11:19 AM
those in CJ would know this.

The students are the pebbles
The teachers are the rock
and together, we stone.

★ AT 3:02 AM

schooled today.

out with friends.

home with sis.

my canon 450D is the best.

i love love love love my camera.

gonna go with me everywhere i go!

no matter what, i'm Yours

★ Friday, August 29, 2008 AT 1:18 AM
NO SHIT.
I GOT MY CANON 450D!
FINALLLLLLLLYYYY PUHHLEASEEE. HAHAHHAHA.

bought it today, at the IT fair.
SHIOK!
SNG$1698 for while body kit, and i bought 1 extra lens. wide angel and for zoom.
SHOK PUHLESASEE.
hahaha. super happy, like SUPERR!

yesyesyesyesyes.

my kakee had the privilege of being the 1st person taken.
HAHA

there you go kakee.
i love my kakee.
hahaha, she is soo nice.

okay, long day today.
met one million and one people.
haha

i lovelovelovelovelove You.

★ Wednesday, August 27, 2008 AT 11:18 PM
okay, i'm trying to blog earlier and earlier.
like, so it won't confuse myself and my readers.
like, blogging after 12mn makes things hard to understand. haha

okay, whatever.

met BFFFFFFFFF today.
THANKS BFF FOR THE CHOCOLATE!

met abbbby and zarifa after that.
yupyupyup.

schooled, yupyup.
i'm like SUPER STRESS!
AHH!

kill me. thanks.

lovelovelovelovelovelove

★ AT 12:16 AM
have you ever thought of a tree?

people say, 'there are soo many trees in the forest. but why that 1 tree?'

my answer? 'cause that 1 tree has a flower on it, and it's my flower'

★ Tuesday, August 26, 2008 AT 10:43 PM
oh man, sucks.

family went to parkway just now, to get sissy and me a new phone.
but in the end, found out that the promotion for the phone we wanted (Nokia E71) ended yesterday.
okay, pek chek.

on the other hand, had family time together.
talking and laughing just like good old times.

dad: which camera did you want the other time ah?
me: ehh, canon 450D lor.
dad: orh okay.
me: they having promo now. 1399 for everything, body kit and all.
dad: xin ah, the camera very bulky ah?
sissy: pretty lah.
mum: you want the compact one right? digi cam, the one we got.
dad: but good right? you want it or not?
sissy: it's bulky lor.
mum: since you're not the crazy over this person
me: so, mummy trying to say i crazy lah.

okay, yes. good part, dad is seriously getting me the camera.
and with my current S5 IS? i've got noooo clue.

hmm, kinda excited for it.
can't wait to get my hands on one.
seriously.
woosh.

★ Monday, August 25, 2008 AT 10:52 PM
okay, i did not blog last night.
ehhh, i know, the date says other wise.
but well, cause i blog after 12mn.

okay, about yesterday, today, yesterday no today
whetever.

sunday, class gathering, went dinner together.
after that shalin and me met shawnnnnnn.
came over to my area, to chill talk and stuff.
yup. had loads of fun.
was suppose to go home at like 2.30am.
in the end, i reach home at like 4 plus 5.
HAHA.
but well, it's only outside my house.

poor shalin, stay far ):
shawn still ain't that bad yeah.

yup, anyway. yes.

slept at 5am

yesyes, went to school.

hate this module.
stats.
sucks.

okay, byebye.

thanks for everything dearest, i needed it

★ Sunday, August 24, 2008 AT 3:01 AM
kumar show is good.

★ Saturday, August 23, 2008 AT 1:10 AM
I CANNNNNNNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
I CANNOT!

FREAKFREAKFREAKFREAKFREAK!

i am feeling like this because of YOU
i look like shit because of YOU
i can't freaking do anything cause of YOU
i freaking can't speak up cause of YOU
i can't do nothing because of YOU
i am freaking fearful of YOU

totally not approachable.
i can't bring myself to talk to you, the only thoughts i have about you are like.
BAD.
wth?!
seriously, facade does not work.
lies gossip.
gosh.
I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE

i can confidently say i'm not the only one going through this.

GOODNESS!

making others think i'm shit.
THANKS ALOT.
REALLY.
THANKS.

freaking hell.

★ Friday, August 22, 2008 AT 9:41 AM
notice: long post ahead.



have you ever wonder?

if you were to narrate your whole life out as a story.
will it be a nice one?

will you say, 'i've done a good job, the choices i make, the step i take it have all been worth it and worth while'

will you be able to say that?

or,

will you say, 'i regretted taking this chance, i should have think before doing anything, it was wrong for me to hurt this person. i should not have rush'

which would you say?

none if the above?

why not try,

'goodness, the first half of my life have been a mess! i should not have done what i did. but as for my second half, it was great. leading a good life, leading a decent life. took the right step, made the right decisions'

i would say mine is the 3rd choice.

why?

cause when i met God, my life changed.

like, 180 degree.

well, my life before was not all about drinking and smoking clubbing and stuff, i mean come on i'm only 17!

and not that i am veryyy old, that i can look back my years. but from childhood, up till now?

life was never a 'mess' for me, i don't drink, club, smoke, or even scold vulgarities. but thats not the main point.


growing up in sunday school was also part of my life.
sang little christian songs.
attended sunday school with my cousins.

but soon faded away,
as i grow up.
i grow out of sunday school.
i grew too old for sunday school.

but everything changed, once i step out of sunday school

i was never happy, i was never who i am.

it have always been, like, a facade.

always living up to peoples expectations.

never being who i really am, because i was scared, fearful of being look down on. or even laughed at.

i've never wanted to be a follower, a person who is at the back.

i always want to be in the front, to lead to guide.

but i guess that thought have gotten into me, too much.

it turns ugly, everyone hated me.

but i could not show that i'm fearful or scared, all i could show is that strong headed, leader person i am.

never really willing to help people, cause i thought it was a chore, i could not find the joy in it at all. and i guess i was just too 'proud' to help.

people around me thought i lead a perfect life,
getting everything i want.
being anything i want.
trying anything i want.

thats true, i get everything i want, i get anything i want.
since i know, money is not a factor.
money is not a problem.
or, THE problem.

but i guess i took them without treasuring them.
in another words, took them for granted.
no idea what the word APPRECIATE is.

always had this weird awkward feeling inside me.

knowing that, this is who i'm not suppose to be.
my parents did not bring me up to be like this.

i've always shown them i'm a perfect child.
though also not so perfect in the sense of studies.
but, in terms of character and attitude.
i always greet people when i see them, always smile.
do what was taught.
never really knowing the 'true meaning' behind greetings and stuff.

my parents have never asked much of me,
what they want me to be is very simple actually.
be a good girl,
study hard,
good values.

but i've never known or see the importance in them.

till one day,

when i went back to God.

the day i decided to give my life back to God,
live for Him,
work for Him,
glorify His name.

everything hits me back, since i was a young girl.

i'm who i am now.

i don't live up to men's desires anymore.

i live up to God's.

i miss my sunday school days, singing little christian songs.

though, i'm still strong headed about some stuff.
but well, i'm alright with them now.

though i still want to lead, someday i will.
i'll be a good follower now, learning.

my friends could tell the difference of the old a new me.
my pride dropped, for the better.
i'm really willing to help people now,
i even find the joy in helping others.
going the extra mile for my friends, or just people in need brings a smile to my own face.

i finally understood my parents.
i finally know what character and attitude it.
and living up to it as me, the person i am now.

with all that my parents ask for from me,
now i can give them more.
and they deserve it.

having patient parents is something priceless,
having parents itself is already priceless.

i've never worry about my finance before.

taking things for granted is something i'll never do.
having money is just one thing, but the things i can do with money is many.

i've learn how to appreciate things, not take them for granted.
and be glad with what i already own.

and, i finally know.

greeting someone older than me is something important, respect for the person.
but greeting them truthfully is something else.

i've never greeted people from me to them before,
it's always the because-i-have-to-so-i-must kind of mind set.
and people do feel it, they know it when things are of truth or not.

you may think, why make greeting such a big fuss.

but i guess,
do onto others what you want others to do onto you.

at the end of the day,
God kept His promises.
and He is the one who changed the whole of me.

what made me type this long long post out.
i've got no idea.
it's like 10:17am in the morning.

★ Thursday, August 21, 2008 AT 7:12 PM
did my first Statistic homework.
in the wee hours of the day, and without knowing i did the work until 4am plus.
my goodness, like i was not watching time also.

could not sleep.

stayed up.

went out.

came home.

Dearest BDP, please take care, alright?
i need you for lesson girly.
i love you bdp(:
rest well girly(:

emotional roller-coaster
With all of my heart, <3

★ AT 2:36 AM
i hate this feeling i have.
it's something i hate.
i really really hate.

i wanna express it out, but i know i can't.
though i want to very much.
the only person or one i can express it to is The One.
Yes, You The One.

i don't know whats going on.
and i feel useless when i can't get something, or can't understand something.
i feel shittly useless.

no i can't blog it out.
i just can't.
bye.

★ AT 2:03 AM
went to school today,
my very first Statistic lesson.
was QUITE already, just QUITE.
will get tougher.
and guess what, i hate maths.
i won't be surprise if i cry over this module.
goodness.

milkshake came my place.
had satay and chicken wing.
talked till about 1.45am then he went home.
yup.

okay, thats all.

God sees the heart

★ Wednesday, August 20, 2008 AT 5:07 PM
a post before school.

it's my final semester.
3 more modules to go, and BOOM
i get my Diploma certificate.

time flies.

★ Tuesday, August 19, 2008 AT 11:01 PM
i kinda love my bangs now.
HAHAHA.
no idea why too!
though it's a little mahfan kinda thing.
but well, okay, still can lah.




HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

★ Monday, August 18, 2008 AT 11:37 PM
AHH!

went for orientation just now.
power pack.
my new classmates scares me, they look SUPER smart. haha.
and like, i look dumb to them.
hahaha.
i went crazy, laughing and screaming with mat and abby.
i think they thought i was stupidly lame.
BUT WHY SCARED.
hahaha.

thats all for today. BLAH

★ AT 1:19 AM






you must be wondering why is the little boy's arm being crushed by a car.

it's not an accident AT ALL.

Reason:
His arm is being crushed by a car is because he stole BREAD.
And this is his punishment, IN THE NAME OF ISLAM this is his punishment.
And he cannot use this arm ever again, cause he stole BREAD.

and the age of this innocent kid? EIGHT YEARS OLD.
yup, 8 only.

and i'm not kidding, it's in the name of Islam.

poor kid):

★ Sunday, August 17, 2008 AT 5:55 PM
I LOVE DEVIANTART PLEASE!
no, it's not a place to fool around like friendster.
it's a cool and awesome place.

anyway, seirously.
i'm feeling kinda shitty now.
i don't think daddy is gonna buy me my 450D ):
why? cause my S5 Is is bought only last year.
and seriously, now it's like.
no birthday present this year at all ):
i want my iphone and camera.
i get to choose 1 only, i chose camera.
now? dad don't wanna get camera.
then iphone how!?
SHIT!

what the hell, honestly what the hell.

okay, i should not be like this.
freaking like a spoilt brat.
overly pampered kid.
what the hell.
stop it vanns, STOP IT.
okay.

my whole family is getting me to WORK.
i say okay, i work 3 times a week.
they so NO. EVERY SINGLE DAY.

mum: go get a job, work at sis studio.
me: okay, fine. 3 times a week. days that i got school i work. 135
mum: no. everyday
me: WTH! TOTALLY NO LIFE PLEASE, I'M ONLY 17, I GOTTA WORK FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE IN THE FUTURE.
mum: -laughs-

seriously, i don't see what so funny.
i am freaking 17 years old. and she wants me to work EVERDAY.
get the feel of working life, like at 17.
1 min tell me not to work, want me to study. next min want me to work.
wth.
okay fine, i admit, i have not worked before in my life. yah, lazy bum and all.
i don't know if this is considered working, but i worked for my aunt.
work for her help her whatever it's called.
and i get paid.

and everyone tells me that, THAT IS NOT WORKING.
seriously WTH.
i work for her during CNY, work like a freaking machine
19 hours STRAIGHT no break.

fine, then they will say, YOU HAVE NOT MET ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE.
okay, i eat rice lesser than you eat salt, BUT SO!?
WORK MEANS WORK RIGHT?
what kind of people, all kind of people, i have met at least SOME.
and they freaking think i have not met ANY kind of people before.

why? just cause it's my aunt i'm working for.

freakinghell.

freaking 17 years old, and everyone wants me to work.
when i will have to work for the rest of my life.
i agreed to work, part time.
cannot, must be full time.
seriously, my life or theirs.
if i say this, the respond i get will be 'FOR YOUR OWN GOOD'
yah lah, whatever. for my own good, everything for my own good.
no life also my own good.
freakingshit.

and worst still. COMPARING.
who likes comparing i ask you, who?
so and so i soo much better, can yo please be like her.
she is soo good, work blah blah blah blah.

YAH YAH YAH, since so and so better why even bother to care about me?
go care about so and so lah!
since so and so daughter better, so and so kid better.
at what 2 years old start working. blah blah.
whatever lah, i am not so and so.
stop comparing, no one likes to compare, just like how i don't think parents likes to be compared to other parents.

i experienced it before.

me: wah, so and so parents super cool can! brings them on holiday like, yearly, bigbig holidays.
parents: then go be their kid lah.

see see, yah, SAME THING! WTH!
parents should think before they talk. honestly!
i've stop comparing parents.
and i think it's high time they stop too.
i'll never forget times when my parents would tell me 'i will never compare you two with other kids'
WOAH, THE WAY LAH THE WAY.

THEY JUST WANT THE BEST FOR ME.
thanks.

okay, me as a kid. have MANY MANY faults too!
just that i don't see them or don't reconise them as faults.
and since parents don't have a blog to in directly tell me things, it's hard.
no one is perfect, not even our parents. and me, totally not perfect.
i complain about parents, they also will complain about me.
FAIR(:

p/s: i'm not saying my parents sucks. all i'm saying is that, this are the common stuff that happens to us kids. and what is happening to me. NO ONE IS PERFECT, NO PARENTS ARE PERFECT. so this does not mean that my parents sucks, they don't they actually rock. but these are the little mistakes that i guess they don't see. and i believe that i'm not the only one going through all these. these are common mistakes by our dearest parents who we love deeply.

though i'm all pissed and stuff, but well. i still love them.

p/p/s: i know i sound like a spoilt brat.

★ Saturday, August 16, 2008 AT 10:14 PM
hey hey ya'll.

as you can tell, i did not blog last night.
well, cause it was CHAN'S BIRTHDAY CHALET!
sooo, stayed over with the crew.
yupyup.
was awesomely fun. yup.
a few set backs, but well. it's alright.

food was good also!

yup, i did not go church today):
was too tired, until cannot tank.
well well, next week a MUST to go!
missed 2 weeks already, so disconnected. haha.
gotta go man.

alright, thats about it for now!

back to editing my pictures!

★ Friday, August 15, 2008 AT 3:06 PM
I LOVE MY KAKEE.
AND I MISS HER.

KAKEEEE!! WHEN ARE WE MEETING!?
I WANT TO FAR EAST WITH YOU AND CHILIN CHAR ZI WITH YOU.
WALKING AROUND TOWN, AND LOOK FOR LYNN WITH YOU.
I WANT TO GO HOME WITH YOU, AND BIS HOME FROM YOUR HOUSE BUSSTOP.
I WANT YOU TO COME HOME WITH ME, AND I'LL WALK YOU OUT TO THE BUS STOP WITH BABY SHINO.
I MISS TALKING TO YOU TILL LATE IN THE NIGHT.
I MISS YOU SLEEPING ON THE PHONE WHILE I WATCH A MOVIE.
I MISS WATCHING LATE NIGHT SHOWS WITH YOU.

KAKEEEEE!!
AHH!

★ AT 3:13 AM
i am freaking depress now.
cause of my freaking ugly bangs.
no, my bangs is not ugly at all.
i am the ugly one.
bangs are nice, but me is ugly.
suckshit.

★ Thursday, August 14, 2008 AT 8:05 PM
one word.

SCREWED.

went to do my hair today, screwed.

there is no green, so i dyed it red again to enhance the color.
black and red, the same.
but, i cut bangs.
shabby bangs, i look like shit.

thank you.

BEFORE

AFTER



★ Wednesday, August 13, 2008 AT 10:48 PM
once again.
i lifeless blog.

anyway, seriously.
why are people different?
in a sense like, cyber person and true self.
have you ever thought about it?

not pointing to anyone in particular.

but yup, why?
why soo down and sad cyber-ly is the cyber you actually is you?
what happens to your true self? are you true to yourself when going about your life?
are you honest to yourself?
why are you a different person?
honestly to ones true self, instead of honestly to ones cyber self.
get it?
why portray a nice, cheerful, happy, chirpy person to others.
but in the cyber world, it's all dull, sadness, anger, lifeless.

honestly? honest to yourself? be who you are?

What joy for those whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt, whose lives are lived in complete honesty!
psalm 32:2

living in joy is something everyone wants true?
being true to yourself, being who you are, living in complete honesty.
for the Lord has clear you of all your guilt. He can too clear you of all your dullness, sadness, anger and lifelessness. bring joy to your live.
living in honesty. being true to yourself. not hide your feelings a side
blogging it out may help to release your feelings.
but well, talking to someone will help right?
how about talking to the Almighty God above? seeking help from Him.
to live a life of honesty, and not living your life as someone you're not.
why go through soo much? when you can talk to God about it?
and will be able to lead a honest life, going about your daily chores.
being you, the real you.



okay!
went to look for aunt min today.
after a long long time, and she is sick.
REST WELL AUNT MIN! I LOVE YOU!

painted my nails pink(:

okay, byebye.

★ AT 2:20 AM
Find time for God,
Make time for God.
And not,
Let time find God for you,
Wait for time to be made for you to find God.

★ Tuesday, August 12, 2008 AT 10:02 PM
my brain is dead.
i have been sleeping late, but waking up early.
sleeping at 4am, waking up at 10.30am.

ate durian today, super good.
went out with the folks.
oh man, went to challenger at parkway.
went in with my folks, wanted to check out my camera.

me: hi, may i know if you guys got Canon 450D?
person: nope, we don't. we only got 1000D
me: oh, okay. -walks out disappointed-

mannn...

okay, anyway, i really want my Canon 450D. like SERIOUSLYYY!!
I WANT ITTT))):

can totally scream for it.

felt that this time the Olympics not good eh.
like, there is no competition at all.
China is taking all, everything EVERYTHING.
totally. goodness.

this blog is like, DYING. seriously.
i have run out of ideas. gosh.

aiyah, will blog more if i want.
bye for now.

★ AT 12:38 AM
there are TONS of stuff i wanna do.
I MUST GET TO IT.
but i'm not. crapppp.

so many things to do, and it's not that i've got no time.
is more like, i am just tooo lazy to move my ass to get stuff done.

okay, more of my thoughts than my days now.
as what my previous previous post says.
less post of my day.

okay, goodbye.
busy studying photography.

★ Monday, August 11, 2008 AT 2:35 AM
i must admit.
today's dinner.
was. the. best. ever.

i laughed till i cried.

it is not nice to say what i laughed over.
but yes. it's a inside family-only-joke.

i laughed and laughed, and my aunty and uncle pointed at me, and laughed like CRAZY.

HAHAHAHA.

this post is useless.

★ Sunday, August 10, 2008 AT 6:18 PM

left is Alex and right is Uncle Bernard.
I NEVER KNEW UNCLE B COULD ACTUALLY SING.

okay, anyway, thats one of the video that i took yesterday.
during the wine party. Alex is Uncle B's friend. and so he came too.
and he is a singer at Singapore Swimming Club.
yup. so we had fun and all lah.

okay, went dinner with the family.
SUPER FUNNY PLEASE
I MEAN IT.
i was laughing like crazy, until i cried.
seriously.
super funny.

okay, thats all.
byebye

★ Saturday, August 09, 2008 AT 4:16 PM
i love my Liying, Evan and Sayang.

don't be confuse, i'm all of them.
i'm soo used to being calling Sayang.
seriously, like some people don't even know my real name, but only know me as sayang. how cool is that. ahaha. thinking that sayang is my real name. okay. yes.

thats was really random.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE(:

though i don't feel the 'heat' but well. still national day.
PARTY PARTY AT HOME TODAYYYY.
so, never go church, yups.
gonna miss church man.

i guess, i'm gonna change my blog a little.
in terms of my post.
in order not to make my life too public, and my mama may haunt me.
i will not be blogging too much about my day.
note, not too much, but still got lah. haha.
like wth. okay.


i was just talking to Dumbo that night.
had a pretty long talk with her, some cool stuff man.
a few phrases i told her actually struck me.
like, hit myself back.
Shallow people judge people by their looks
seriously, i find them shallow.
does not mean a person with tattoos on his/her body makes him/her a gangster.
does not mean people with blonde hair means they are of bad influence.
does not mean people who you see once drinks beer makes the person a alcoholic.

okay, whatever.

party today at home.
woah, madness.
it's 0222 now, and everyone just went home.
uncle's friend came also, he is a singer from Singapore Swimming Club.
cool stuff, he came and sang songs and all.
i took pictures, but will upload it some other day i guess, i'm really really tired.
like super.

okay, bye. i'm dead tired.

★ Friday, August 08, 2008 AT 11:08 PM
080808
thats the date today. hahaha.
hmmm, lets see, i believe ALLLLL the aunties bought like, 4D.
hahaha.

seriously, you think the person/people who sets the number will set that number as the winning number?
and singapore pool's would loose money?
hehe.

okay, hmm. yao ming is 7'4"
woah. hahaha. 7 foot 4.

okay, i am bored.

sis and me have made dessert. hehe.

byebye.
i want my 450D

★ AT 1:09 AM
i guess my blog is a place i can express myself, freely.
well, not freely then.
a place where a fake me lives.
a place where a cyber me lives.
a place where i am not who i am.

though it's,
a place where the real me lives.
a place where the life i lives.
a place where i am who i am.

it contradicts.
i know it does.

when a family turns into a organization.
when people who you love and they love you turns into a organization.
when i reach a point where you cannot open yourself to them.
when i can't seem to open to people you love.
when i can't turn to anyone.
when love gets tough.
when i feel weird.
when i don't know what to do.

if only the organization becomes a family once again.
if only the people you love and love you would not be a organization.
if only i can open myself to them.
if only only i can open myself to the people i love.
if only i can turn to someone.
if only love is not this tough.
if only i don't feel weird
if only i know what to do.

why are things this way.
why are situation so irritatingly tough.
why are people drifting away.
why are people trying to take things in their hands.
why are people doing this to themselves.
why are people not loving anymore.
why are things soo tough.
why can't love be open.

what is this world coming to.
what are people thinking these days.
what have love become.
what is people trying to do.
what is wrong with proclaiming love.
what is wrong with people.
what is wrong with me.
what is people doing with God's love.

where have the love gone.
where have people chuck God to.
where is the God we love.
where is the love for God gone to.
where have people chuck the power that God have given them to.
where am i in this world.

when can i love.
if only i am able.
why can't i love.
what is wrong with love.
where is the love i use have.

God, i need You badly.

★ Thursday, August 07, 2008 AT 11:41 PM
i went CHOPPING WITH MY SISTER TODAY.
CHOPPING CHOPPING.
haha.
okay, shopped in topshop only, did not buy much though):
bought 3 top(: totally love them.
and 4 boxers/boy shorts
rocks, i got the BATGIRL and SUPERMAN one for myself, while sis got 2 super cute one. hahahaha 1 is miss piggy and another is some cute stuff.
so nice.
okay, had marche for dinner with sissy.
food was shiok.
steak, fish and crepe.
shiok. okay.

after that went to meet sayanggggg dennis and stefan for supper.
after supper, was off to dennis' condo pool to talk.
then HOMEHOMEHOME!

OMGOMGOGM, i am like sooo excited, i can't wait for my Canon 450D to COME COME COME.
hahaha. i totally checked it out for dadddddddy dearest(:
and i hope i will get it soooon. hehehe.
SO EXCITING. haha.
I WANT MY CANON PLEASE.
hahaha.
so fun.

thats all for today.

byebyebyebye

★ AT 3:04 AM
it's 304am.
and i have not bathe.
hehe.
and i am blogging about yesterday, today, yesterday.
okay, 6 August. Wednesday.

i was home all day, toh-ing.

12 plus and i was still sleeping.
i knew that Shalin is coming to my house, but i thought she would only come at 1.30pm.
but well, 12 plus and she reached. she called my phone 7 times and texted me once, ut i did not reply, i did not call back. cause i was sleeping. opps.
yes. in the end, i woke up. and rushed to open the door for her.
yesyes, okay, she came over, slacked and all.

okay, was photogrpahying with timo that day.
and here are some pictures he took of me.
i was being his model. yup.
the pictures are not the actual resolution and not edited.
for copyrighted purposes. yup.
Taken with a Nikon D60.
I had no make up on, or rather. okay i had. only foundation and mascara.
thats all.
everything natural(:







THANKS TIMO!

thats all, byebye.

★ Wednesday, August 06, 2008 AT 12:08 AM

i want you.
Canon 450D.

okay, i don't think i;m getting iphone anymore, not that i don't love apple. i do.
just that, i wanna get my DSLR camera.
and i guess i wanna wait for more iphones to come first. shall see how again.
but now, i want my DSLR, i want my photography. haha.

i love today. RED, PAIN):

mummy talk is the best.

★ Tuesday, August 05, 2008 AT 12:12 AM
went out today.

not in the mood to say anything now.

pictures will be uploaded soon i guess.

bye.

ps. don't ask me what is wrong

★ Monday, August 04, 2008 AT 12:49 AM
OKAY, i am home blogging.

stayed home the whole day, with my family.
was too tired to go out and stuff.
but had family dinner.

THANKS BIU YEE AND UNCLE BRUCE!

they treat dinner(:
the kids sat together.
hahaha, was pure madness. seriously.
Evan kept coming to my and disturbing me.
pull my dress, lick my finger, eat my food. hahaha.
just come and disturb me non stop.
was really funny. all sat together and had fun, talked about everything and anything under the sun. super funny sia.

okay, yes, afternoon was a coller coaster ride.
but everything is fine already!
THANKS FOR EVERYONE WHO ASK! (:
thanks MILKSHAKE!

i still love you

★ Saturday, August 02, 2008 AT 10:02 PM
ECONOMICS EXAMINATION TODAY!
I STILL HATE ECONS!
but well, i managed to answer the 5 question i choose out of 8 questions.
not bad not bad.
could FINALLY understand FISCAL AND MONETARY POLICY!
and had to explain what, Contraction, Peak, Expansionary and Trough is.
WOAH. i could actually remember.

Contraction - recession
Trough - depression
Expansionary - Inflation
Peak - Economic BOOM!

hahaha. i think it's right.

a sudden urge to blog out what i learn about econs. BUT! NAHHH. hahaha

okay, after exam, went to Swensen to makan lunch.
some problem occurred. but why scared. in the end Melvin YuJin Abby and myself ate.
FREAKING FUNNY PLEASE.
joke of the day.

Abby: anyone wants 1 piece of chicken? i cannot finish leh.
Melvin: i changed my name to Anyone recently.
everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

wth lah melvin!
okay, anyway, i BRUNT MYSELF(:
how freaking smart of myself.
i was suppose to take care of myself, end up buring myself.
cause melvin and me ordered a Apple Crumble to share.
you know the dessert? the one that is like on a hot pan, then got a piece of cake and topped with a single scoop ice cream. that one?
here is a picture of it.

okay, as you can see, it is on a BLACK PAN. and it is freaking hot.
you know you know? eat steak, got that hot hot plate.
yesyes, okay i was just trying to be irritating.

yes, MELVIN SOO SMARTLYYY TURN THE HANDLE TOWARDS ME.
then we talk talk laugh laugh laugh, i take the spoon and get a scoop of the thing, then PA! my wrist touched the handle.
i screamed. HAHAHAHA. people turn and look sia.
i did not think much of it, until after a while, the pain was like from bad to worst!
and could see like slight blister. FREAKING PAIN. buitahan.
i did not know will be soo jialat some more.
went to church, put the burn cream thing, gosh. almost died.
HAHAHHAHAHAA.

me: PIANGG EHHH, SUPER PAINN LAHHH. -looks at wrist- it's like, red and like forming blisters like that.
melvin: look like love bite.
me: wth.


okay, sermon was COOOL.
Thou Shall Not Commit Adultery.
cause this few weeks, PD is preaching on the 10 commandments.
woah. cool stuff.
today's one was special. combine service, girls 1 hall guys 1 hall.
like woah. hahaha.
soo much to say about it.
Your virginity is a gift from God, for you to give your HUSBAND.
wheewhee.
haha.

I AM BRAIN DEAD, AND I AM LEFT WITH LIKE 0% OF ENERGY.
hahaha.

okayyyyyy, dinner was soo cute, walk out for dinner, and saw Uncle Richard and Aunt Nelly. had dinner together.
yupyup
thats about it.

BYEBYE.


the clowns of the family.
all famous ACS(I) Rugger.
Sec 2.
and my cousin(:

★ Friday, August 01, 2008 AT 11:55 PM
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KORKOR!!!!!!!!!



((:

DINNER WAS DAAAA BOMB!
sat beside daddy and TK.

gonggong: both of you together can become clowns.
tim and me: HAHAHAHA. connection.

hahaha, totally lah. we're like, da bomb. put us together, and the whole family laughs. haha.

anyway, i stayed home the whole day to chiong for econs exam tomorrow.
bi came my house too. studied and all.
goodness. ECONS KILLS.

anyway, back to studying!
byebye.

man, i miss you

★ AT 3:04 AM
I just wanna dedicate this post to NAZ.
For those who don't know, Naz is my classmate.
and he is a police man! how cool eh.
yes, anyway, he was away in Puhket (if i'm not wrong)
but sadly, he met with a car accident.
and now is in coma.
please keep him in your prayers.

Naz, be strong alright. i know you are strong and will have the will power to wake up. i'll be keeping you in my prayers. you have been a great friend and classmate, though we don't talk much, but well. i know you're strong, the class will always be here for you no matter what. and God will be with you always. Be strong.

okay, today had presentation.
suckshit.
but my teacher is still the best lah.
THANKS LEO!

yes, thats all. saturday exam. die. doom. shit. crap. dead.

anyway, i've received my timetable for my next sem already.
school will be on every MONDAY, WEDNESDAY AND FRIDAY. so it's 1 3 5 of the week.
will be studying Statistics, followed by Financial Accounting then Legal Environment Business.
heavy subjects. dooooomness.

okay, thats all. gotta study now. GROSS. but well.
i am gonna study. yay yay.

woo, once again, views hits over a thousand.
people are free to view friendster profiles once again.
haha.

CIAO!

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