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★ PROFILE.



vannieser

Married at 22
A mother at 23
And loving it.

Why? Because i married someone who makes me truly happy.

And this blog is dedicated to everyone i love.



vannieser@live.com



★ HISTORY
August 2005
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November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
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March 2014

★ Saturday, February 28, 2009 AT 10:27 PM
i need a lighter laptop to carry with me.
my mac is heavy to carry out ):
though i love my mac, but it's heavy to carry out with me):
a 8.9" would be good, which is less than a kilo. that would be even better.
haha. thats a acer though. 8.9" and less than a kilo. WOOHOO!

my project is like, more or less done.
i really don't like doing projects man.
really, DON'T like.
goodness.
i just don't have a choice.
abby will say i'm just being fussy and acting spoilt. HAHA.
but really lah, sucks lah.
argh.

went to gramps house today.
i had the chance to play L4D just now, but i could not bring myself to play.
i was scared to play it alone. like, single player and computer.
i can't ):

but yeah, we ate DURIAN TODAY!
i was awesomely shiok.
for the first time, i OPENED 2 DURIANS!
of course there is the cut thing, but i open like, you know, break it into quarters and all. really cool seh.
and we all ate, SHIOKNESS.

i'm pretty excited for tuesday!
gonna go out with cousin and friends.
i wonder is there anywhere that like can SEW SHOES.
like, sew words or something on a pair of shoe. hmm.

i am sooooooo freaking tired.
spending late nights doing my project.
all of us, phew, spending alot of time doing it. no joke.
monday presentation, then friday exam.
fast. f.a.s.t.

okay, gotta go!
byebye world.
lovelove.

★ Friday, February 27, 2009 AT 11:33 PM
this project really no joke sia.
like, my group only got like 4 person.
TIRING CAN.
gosh, i'll never want to do a business plan ever again sia. it kills people.
okay, presentation on monday, and exam on friday.
GOODLUCKTOME.

then after that it's MARKETING.
WOOHOO. pretty excited for it(:
since sister is a marketing major. WOOHOO!

and i am excited to watch PRINCESS WISHES!

and sister's birthday is coming soon! EXCITE!

march march is coming, i am sure it is gonna be a good month!
i don't wanna say anything bad lah. hehe.
i think i'm a lil crazy and stuff, not that i am normally not, but yeah.
tired i guess.

and i am addicted to L4D, just after playing it ONCE.
with demelza, kayden, les. p.
and i wanna play it again and again and again!

OMG, i can't believe i am still blogging!
it's 2.32AM
and i started blogging at 11.33PM!

i was busying doing my powerpoint slides.
haha. i am tired nowww.

GOTTA GOOO
BYEBYEEE!!

★ AT 12:17 AM
i have been soooo disconnected to my blog.
haha.

but well, past week have been CRAZY BUSY!

my project is KILLING MEEEEEEE softlyyy with hiss wordddd....
okay, but really, it is like, killing meeee.

yeah, so yupyupyuyupppp.

i shall get back to my busyness, and blog everything nicely soon.

BYE!

L4DL4DL4DL4D!

★ Wednesday, February 25, 2009 AT 11:40 PM
i am soooo freaking tired!
i need my sleep, honesstly neeeed it BADLY!

alright, i officially love playing left 4 dead.
WOOHOO!
L4DFTW!

okay, night

★ Monday, February 23, 2009 AT 11:22 PM
note: there are no picturs, cause they are all not with me YET. waiting to get them from the photographer!!!!(:

alrighty more energy to blog about uncle's wedding!

it was a BUSY BUSY DAY FOR ME!

woke up at 8am.
started to prepare and all make up for the bride, photographer came and start.
we were short of time! we started late! and the groom was suppose to leave his house at 9am, and reach my place 9 plus! but good thing is that, they left the house slighty late, so they reached later! we managed to get the bride ready and all before the groom comes! so yay! we did!
he came to pick her up and all, go back to their house for the tea ceremony, sis and me went late, cause we were still in our PJS! we did not even have time to bathe! ):
so we changed and wash up and get ready, then we flew out of the house and off to their house!
reached just in time for photo session and lunch.

after that, at about 1.45pm everyone went back home.
and the bride and groom went to the hotel straight, sis and me did not go home, we had to go to the hotel straight to prepare the bride and groom, settle the venue and IT stuff.
so yeah, did all, like busy busy bee.

while having a meeting with the hotel staff, my parents reach.
and sis and i went O.O like, dad! he was wearing TIE AND BLAZER!?
thats sooooo not daddy. best still, HE LOOKS LIKE A MAFIA.
from then on, everyone said that my family is the MAFIA family. haha. super funny.
well cause all 4 of us wore black.
yup.

sis and me had like 0 time to get ready, like ZERO. at least i still manage to bathe, so yeah.
make up and all done like CHOP CHOP. so faster dress up faster change, faster everything, rushed down and all. i was suppose to do reception somemore, but i could not, due to like, i was in the room changing the bride and all, and i had to do up myself also. so luckily my other cousin took over me. and my sister and me just chop everything.

so yeah! i brought the vride and groom for their 1st march in, and all.
my hear MELTED when i saw them walk, i was smiling ear to ear. it is SUCH A PRICELESS MOMENTTT. awwwww soo mushy. but it's true okay.
was a REALLLLLY sweet moment. i wanted to talk down the aisel myself. HAHAHAHA.
so yeah, after the 1st march in, they went to eat and all, mingle with the guest and all.
then after that brought them up for their change, then down for the 2nd march in.

2nd march in was reallly funny. hahaha.
cause after i let them walk, i had to go right to the front, all the way, so i had to walk the aisle, so i went from the side, until i could not, then i run down the aisle, i was ahead of the photographer, so i was not blocking nothing, but while i was running, someone THREW THE ROSE PETALS ON ME. it was soooo funny, thent ehy guy went, 'aye sa la' HAHAHAHA.

then he threw again on the bride and groom. was such a sweet moment, from there everyone drank and all.

time for phototaking so sis, my cousin and i had to organise the whole thing.
so gathered people group by group to have their pictures taken with the bride and groom.
yeah, was sooooo nice.

THE WHOLE DAY WAS A BLAST!
at the end of the whole thing, uncle and aunty was REALLLLLY HAPPPPYYY!!!
we are all glad they are too(:

haha. MY MAFIA FAMILY.
I LOVEE YOU ALL(:


★ AT 1:01 AM
I AM SOO SOO SOOO TIRED!

i'm gonna blog another day about the wedding.
but just 1 picture for today first.

say HELLO, to the Mafia Family(:

in the middle you've got the Mafia himself with his lady.
and on the left and right, are their Mafia daughters.
all dressed in black, and looking neat.

LOVE YA!

blog about the wedding another time! TIRED!!!!

honestly, when you spend time with people you REALLLLLY LOVE.
like your family, and special someone.
it means soo much more, than the time you spend with anyone else.

i've been having really little friends lately, but i get to spend soo much more time with my family and love one.
like, family and me are like, sooo close and soo tight nothing can break us apart!
special someone, is awesome is great, and love is in us!

i spend very little time with my friends, and i spend alot more time with people i really love.
and good ol' friend catch ups ARE THE BEST TOO!
but well, time well spent is like woah, can never be explained.

seeing uncle and aunty soooooo happy today, still gives me tickles in my heart.

★ Saturday, February 21, 2009 AT 8:41 PM
hoho.
i really did not get my dress man, and i did not go shopping for it either!

well, i've FINALLY got a backup plan. i faound a dress/top that i have NOT WORN BEFORE.
so i'm gonna wear that for the wedding, with erm...green nails.
HAHA. pretty cool.

long day tomorrow LONG LONG DAY.
gotta help uncle and all, so yeah, busy busy bee.

for now, i gotta do my project, settle it before tomorrow.

★ Friday, February 20, 2009 AT 11:51 PM
OMG, I NEED MY DRESS BY TOMORROW!
I NEED IT!
I PAINTED MY NAILS JUST TO MATCH MY DRESS AND ALL, IF IT DOES NOT COME, I DON'T HAVE A DRESS OR CLOTHES TO WEAR TO MY UNCLE'S WEDDING. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMG.

I AM SOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW, I SHALL MARK THIS DAY ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE. ONE OF, CAUSE THERE ARE MANY MORE TO COME.

TTTTAAA!!

★ Thursday, February 19, 2009 AT 10:37 PM
(:

★ Wednesday, February 18, 2009 AT 4:10 PM
a major ting just happen in my room.

for the past few months, i was like, living with ants.
like while using my lappy, suddenly i will see an ant crawling on my desk or something.
then i'll start killing them.

that day i was like, eating chicken rice, and i never throw the pack ad all away, i left it on my table. of course i use the place mat lah.

then like, after awhile.
noticed that there were like ants on the corner of my desk.
you know those like, some walking up some walking down thing.
then i was like, FOLLOW THE LINE FOLLOW THE LINE.

and!

realised that i have been SLEEPING WITH AN ANT NEST!
like, they climb up my stairs to my loft, and they decided to live at the corner of it, like right at the corner, that smallll gap between the wood and the wall.
i did not notice before cause i had a chest covering it.

OMG!

yeah, then my maid was like, pissed.
HAHA.
started to clean up, spray those killer thing everywhere.
HAHA.

now my room is ANT FREEEE.

i just goggled the word ANTS.
and click to see images.

i almost puke.
like, YUCK YUCK YUCK YUCK YUCK!

prettttttty excited for tomorrow.
looking forward to it.
will be meeeeeeting a REALLY old friend.
went through ALOT together, and even lost contact.
but we're meeting tomorrow.
yupypu
CATCHUP!

alrighty, gotta gooooo.
TTTTTTAAAAAATTTTTTTTAAAAAAAA

★ Tuesday, February 17, 2009 AT 6:39 PM
i did not blog yesterdayyyyyy.

went to makan after school with some of my classmates.

but woah, Daryl asked a question which TOTALLLLLY spoke to me.

he asked this, 'how ah? how can anyone ever lose the passion of going to church. how ah?'

HELLO, it totally spoke to me.

i mentioned many many things in my previous few post already. so i don't have to reply this here.

but well, i can only say, SOME people lose the passion to go church, but did not lose the passion for almighty Jesus.
SOME people loses them all.
sadly.

i love God with all my heart, i love Him i adore Him.

i guess i don't need to say much.

do i still need to repeat?

if you're gonna get offended about sensitive church, christian stuff.
and it's my opinion hor.
don't read okay? (:

the fear of being a christian i guess.

(1)

back like 4 years.

my sister asked my leader this question.
which NOW i TOTALLY understand.

my leader: so why not you give me your number?
sister: oh for what? why?
my leader: so that we can keep in contact lor.
sister: you won't call me all the time right?
my leader: no lah, don't worry.


then i ask sis, 'ka, why you ask that ah?'

well, she said this , cause if you give your number to like, leaders and all, they tend to call you ALL THE TIME.
from call like friends become call to pester.

and i totally understand that.

thats why i call it the FEAR of being a christian.

it's like, before you know it, your phone is flooded with calls and text. from MANY people.
like, HUH!?

yeah, like, the calls will come in non stop.

when can we meet up again ah?
coming this weekend?
why never come ah? I MISS YOU LEH.
coming next week?
aye, try to meet up this week kay?

woah, i know that like, trying to hold on to new comers and all, but i just felt that it is too much.

it becomes pestering.

it's a never ending process.
until my sister got fed up.

(2)

once you are 'in' a church.
stable member and all.

here comes what?

THE RULES

thats the 1 thing i fear. like, honestly man.

i can't be meeeee, i must change me to be what the church ask me to be

well, the church would say, we gotta be christ like and all.
yeah, i get what you mean.

but hey, i am still me yeah?

like, some people are just more enthu than compared to others?

do we ALLL have to be the same? though we are all christians?
like, we are all working towards being christ like, but that does not mean i change myself like 180 degrees to another person right?

all the rules and all, gosh, KILLINGGG MEEEEEE.
rather than PULLING me CLOSER to God.
it is PUSHING me AWAY from God.

okay, like church and God.
some might think, why the church can push you away or me from God.

like, is it THAT tough to be a christian?

i honestly thought that, being a christian don't have all these rules and all.

since like, this is a RELATIONSHIP with God and not a RELIGION.

i thought we're free in christ?

as in like, i am still who i am what.
i lead my life by example.

I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE THE GREAT I AM SAYS I AM.

yeah.
now it is changing man, I AM NOT WHO I AM BECAUSE THE RULES SAYS I'M NOT.

so how?

be christians so hard?
what is the difference form others then.

yeah.

please note this, I DON'T HATE CHRISTIANS.
i am a christian myself
and I LOVE GOD and i don't care what anyone say about me.
because what matters is MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.
and NO ONE can come BETWEEN my relationship with Him.

alright. BYEBYE(:

★ Sunday, February 15, 2009 AT 9:35 PM
sis said a really good point which i TOTALLY forgot!!!!
haha.

she said this, 'If God gave us CHOICES who are we as man to take that choice away from us'

AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN.

God died for sinners, and not for perfecto people.
precisely why there are no perfect human.
TRUEEEEEE??

God will know stone me for making the wrong choice.
cause He gave me choices, whether i make the right choice or not, i know that God still loves me.

but well, there are man who are taking away the choices that are meant for man to make.

yeah, short and simple.

★ Saturday, February 14, 2009 AT 5:48 PM
i receive a tag from - well, i am gonna reply you here yah.

and the tag reads

-: honestly, i disagree. maybe you should think through what u type rather than let the anger out. cos a pure christian will respect the rules of other churches, because every single church is unique. that was just a thought, not kicking up a debate with you. and when we serve more and more, it is doing it for house of God, not because we are told to btw. just added that!

well, i guess you're a girl. HEHE. i am just acting cool, thinking i am all smart. haha.

okay, hmm.

yupyupyup, not here to start a debate too(: (don't worry that smile is not sarcastic)

you said, 'cos a pure christian will respect the rules of other churches, because every single church is unique'

i agree! every church is unique. there is no photocopy of churches.

okay, i myself also is in a church, and well, like i said, i am not pointing fingers at anyone and saying who is wrong or right. cause well, everyone is different, every church is different. but like i said, this is PURELY my OPINION.
i assume you're from a church yeah?
well, if you're feeling that i'm attacking your church or you.
i already said, in my blog, if you're gonna get all offended and stuff, it is better not to read the post. cause well, everyone have got different point of view.

if to you a pure christian is to or will respect the rules of a church.
then, yup!! thats your point of view.
i guess to me, i just don't like to like, just follow whatever my church says?
in a sense like, i like to have my point point of view.

and it does not matter if you think i'm not a pure christian. cuase to me, all tat matters is my relationship with God(:

so yuppp(:

i agree that like, Christians serve is really doing and serving for God and stuff. but well, you don't know what i've been through myself. and thats why i say that. cause there are people who serve until, like 'off track.'

i will say this again.

this is just MY point of view, it's not your point of view, then i'm cool with it.
like you saidddd, not here to have a debate(:

God bless(:

alrighttttttttt!!

just a FEWWWWW questions.

would you rather have quantity OR quality?
what is your main aim, when you say, 'i'm going church'?
who is your hero?

★ AT 4:49 PM
sooo caught up with project.
sooo caught up with my feelings.
sooo caught up with everything but at least not with *ahem* cause it's not good to be with *ahem*

if you understand you do, if you don't. you don't.

life have ups and downs.
like, it is a common thing.

i realise something, that there are people who tend to be fake on blogs.
why?
a friend of mine post before, about why are people fake on their blogs.
i wonder why too.
is it that like, 'shameful' to be yourself on your blog?

i read people's blog alot.
whether i know the person or not, i just read it.
well, one hand many might say 'YOU DARN ENG'
yeah, you can say that again.
but well, with my project now.
i am only half as eng.
but i ALWAYS find time to blog OR read blogs.
hehehe. darn free. haha.

am i weird or is it just me?
sad blogs are blogs which is like, the true feeling of a person
happy blogs makes me smile, to know that, that person is happy.

but i always felt that, when i read a balance of both happy and sad, it really shows the person colors.
like, not afraid to hide his/her feelings.

where else you see some other people. all happy, all colorful.
then i'll wonder. don't this person have any down times at all? so heng ah?

envy sia.

but well, actually i would rather have a life filled with ups and downs.
if not like, poor thing ah.

but well, a blog is up to the person to be real or fake.
like, i said before, my blog i write what i want.
your blog you write what you want.
her blog she write what she wants.
his blog he write what he wants.

true?

true.

you know right, there are MANY MANY ways to express your inner feelings.
some scream, some blog, some hurt themselves, some cry, some isolate, some club, some drink.

i cry.
i cry my heart out.

but really leh, after that right, feels freaking shiok.
haha.

i like to blog too, but well.
i don't blog what the problem is and all, simply cause, i wanna keep this bog private still.
it is not very nice to blog out also. to me i guess.

hehe. alright. shall end here
GOODBYEWORLD.

★ AT 2:04 AM
i am freaking upset
i am FREAKING UPSET!
I AM FREAKING UPSET!!!!!!!!
ARGH!

IT'S FREAKING FREAKING PAINFUL!

ARGH!

★ AT 2:04 AM
i am freaking upset
i am FREAKING UPSET!
I AM FREAKING UPSET!!!!!!!!
ARGH!

★ Thursday, February 12, 2009 AT 12:44 PM
if you are gonna read this post a lil notice.
IF YOU'RE GONNA GET ALLLLL OFFENDED WITH ME ABOUT THIS AND THAT ABOUT CHURCH. RELATIONSHIP. LEADERSHIP AND ALL, DON'T READ IT. i'm not here to offend anyone, i am here to say my heart out.

but well, everything is purely myyyyyy opinion. so yes.
this is my blog, and so this is just my view of things.
not happy with it, come and talk to me.

first, you start out with serving God.
then as time passes, church would give you more and more responsibilities and more and more things to do.
then, i would question.
are you still doing allllllll these to serve God? or, are you doing these just cause church said, 'DO IT NOW'
and lets say if you don't do what the church says, you're labeled as 'NOT SUBMISSIVE TO YOUR LEADERS' 'UNFAITHFUL' 'SPIRITUAL LIFE ROCKY' 'NOT ENTHU IN CHURCH' 'CANNOT MAKE IT'

well, sad to say.
we as human, are not to judge anyone.
cause we don't have the rights to judge ANYONE.
we're not the creator of this earth.
i did not create you and you did not create me.

so who are you to judge me?

well, the church says that, no judging blah blah blah.
but well, look WHO are the one judging.
and making comments about their members?? who?
i'm not gonna point fingers or what so ever.

well, i must say, leaders and people who runs the church and all, are like duhhhhh humans.
but well, they are the one saying NO THIS and NO THAT.
in the end? look who are making mistakes and all.
well, i'm not here to judge anyone.
but i can only say this. PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH. and make sure you don't do anything against what you preach.
if not? just shh and don't talk.

don't go all YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP!
then before anyone knows it, you yourself is in a relationship.

don't tell people not to be in a relationship and you yourself go into one.
if you know you're a leader or something that cannot be in a relationship.
and you are in one. please drop that post.

if not you're not practicing what you preach.

hoh bor?

yes.

well, this whole BGR thing and church is driving me nuts.
i know that there are many many many churches who don't allow BGR in their church.
so stop thinking i am like, point at your church (if you are in one)

well, i understand the fact that churches wants to like, protect their members and all. yeah, i know, i am not like saying that is wrong or anything.
but well, look at things this way.

would you rather like, say NO BGR and people are having relationships behind your back?
OR
say, if you're already in a relationship, or really like someone, tell me. i'm not gonna ban you or anything.

then people will go to the leaders and say.
kids these days (i talk like i'm super old. HAHA) yah. allll like to twist the rules and all. break the rules and all.
if i were the church, i would rather allow relationships but they account to me.
rather than ban it and people get together behind my back, and start all the nonsense.
if i know they are in a relationship. i would rather like guide them and stuff, it is much safer.
rather than they are all on their own and what if they make mistakes and all. worst.

thats why, i rather like, get people to tell me, and stuff. then can guide them.

don't play the hide and seek game.

just, like i am reallllly open to my mother, she knows my everything, so that she can guide me, and teach me everything. then this way, i don't go against her wishes.

like, my mother have never said, 'BABY YOU BETTER NOT GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP. IF NOT YOU ARE UNHOLD AND NOT MY DAUGHTER'

well, my mother told me like, if i got anything, big or small, i can just talk to her about it. and she is okay, she don't flare up nothing. cause why? she UNDERSTANDS.

the whole age thing also.
like, you can go into a relationship unless you're like of a certain age.
so what if you're like say 24, but in thinking and all, the mind is like 12 years old
saying they still can go into a relationship?

it's like, even leaders are having relationships BEHIND the church back.
like, woah.

the main word is UNDERSTAND.

if you really like, love your people/members.
take that effort to get to know them, rather than a LEADER and MEMBER relationship.
have a FRIENDSHIP.
why is it that, some members are closer to their non christian friends or like outside friends?
why? cause they hold a FRIENDSHIP.

like for me, i won't just go to my leader and just suddenly pour everything out. like duhh i won't.
but i go to my FRIENDS to pour my feelings and all out.
to me, i honestly see the difference between LEADERS and FRIENDS. when like, we are all friends.
cause to me right, a leader is not someone i can go to and pour everything out.
cause before i know it, 109823405923493 other leaders knows about this matter that i tell that 1 leader. kinda thing. and they are like LEADERS.
like that 1 word makes a great difference.
honestly that word does not bring warmth to me, but it just brings me coldness.
which sucks lah, honestly.

like, usually the leaders are the one who like, wants/needs to know about your everything, so that if got any problem and all, they can help you guide you and all. but well, to me? some of my personal problems, i won't tell a leader, cause they will just share it during their meetings or something. it's something you want to keep private, like between you and me kinda thing. but nooooooo. it gets out to all the other leaders. then other leaders will start to have different impression of me and all.

please dont come and say like, 'but no. they don't have different impression on you, they still treat you the same'
please don't come and tell me this bullshit. honestly. please.
humans have FEELINGS, and FEELINGS can change.

why is it that other leaders will have like, different impressions and all, it is cause they simply DON'TUNDERSTAND YOU. they take IT as IT.
and they don't bother understanding the person first.

this word LEADER, LEADS. and not be nosy.

nosy is KAY PO. leader is LEAD.

note the difference.

and what did i learn in my business management last year.
is to, NOT TREAT EVERYONE THE SAME WAY.
does not mean person 1 is like this means person 2 and 3 and 4 and all are the same.
EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT.
i see people and leaders and all, sterotyping people.
man, that sucks.

is just like, i can swim but my sister cannot.(she can lah)
just cause we are sisters does that mean we BOTH can swim? or both cannot?

thats the problem.

churches or the leaders see people this way.

YOU AND YOU = LEADERS
so is you can do this SO CAN YOU!

helllloooo. everyone is different.

if everyone is the SAME, i don't see why God needs to create soooo many people and all.

no matter how close 2 person are, they are still different.
twins are still different.

but i felt that people are just sterotyping them to be the same.

if the leader gets 1 person to do 1 thing.
he/she expects that EVERYONE can do EXCATLY the same.
madness.

we are HUMANS and not robots. so don't think that when 1 can do all also can.

omg, i can go on non stop. honestly.

humans are HUMANS! please remember that
WE.ARE.NOT.ROBOTS.

and we don't have to report our life.

just like i don't report my life to my parents.

i lead my life, and i lead my life with God.
i don't lead my life with you, so you don't need to know EVERY detail about my life.
as long as God knows, and i'm ACCOUNTABLE to GOD. that is all that matters.

i know God appoints leaders and all.
i felt that, there are many leaders out there who are like abusing the rights of being a leader.

rather than leading, become nosy.
rather than leading, become 'i can get alllll secrets from everyone MUAHAHAHA'
rather than leading, become 'with this title, HEHE I AM HIGHER THAN EVERYONE ELSE!'

those are just 3. there are loads more.

for some people. who like USE TO BE super on fire and all one in church and all.
i use the words USE TO BE. cause why?
not that they are not on fire now you know.

they ARE on fire for GOD.
they still are, so does not mean that they are like, not going church and all means they backslide and stuff. some yeah, maybe, some nope.
they have got that FIRE FOR GOD.
but they just don't have the FIRE FOR CHURCH.
church is a place where we christans goes to like, pray worship God fellowship with our fellow brothers and sister and all. yeah yeah, i get the drill.
but well, like all that is mentioned above.
people will notice and get bored and tired of all the rules and regulation and all the leaders haunting them and all.
then their fire for church goes out.

but well, search yourself. as a member/leader.

well, i am not a 100% perrrrrfect christian.
i am my weaknesses and i know i stumble and fall too.
but God will pick me up

agree or disagree with this post?
well, it's yours to choose. you have your say.
i have mine.

if you still went to read this post when i already posted the notice and i offended you, i shall be nice and say 'i'm sorry.'
but well, this is really my personal opinion.
love me or hate me. it's your choice.

after all that is said and done.
i still love God.
now and forever.

GOODBYE!

★ AT 12:22 AM
i wanna ask who faces this problem, OR knows how to rectify this problem.

this does not happen often.
but once it happens, it is like, for a period of days.

i can;t open my mails from hotmail.
when i click on the mail i wanna read it always puts javascrpit;;
and i can't read it, can't delete can't read.
i tried to cehck my mails using my sister's laptop, also cannot.
it sucks.

does anyone know who to solve this stupid matter?

school and project. woo.
getting heavy man.

anyway yesterday i also did not blog and all.

well, stupid sinus decided to give me problem.
and so i sleptttt.
took my SUPER DUPER drowsy medicine and slept.

so yes.

went out with mum and sissy though.
then in taka, suddenly my nose went mad.
like, tap on cannot off.
and i'm just trying to think what made my nose go mad.
hmmm.

does anyone know of a say to prevent sinus, or totally stopping it??
if do know, PLEASE TELL ME.
i feel like chopping my nose off.

i got to share this with everyone. SO COOL LOR.

An auto elevator lifts a Volkswagen to its appointed parking space in the VW Autostadt "car tower" in Wolfsburg, Germany.

see properly those are CARS.
how cool right?!

it can contain 800 hundred cars!
and when you retrieve your cars, you can get it within less than 60 seconds!
super cool lor. SUPER.
and it is 100% computer operated.
and this whole thing got more than 500 sensors.

no joke, NO JOKE.

at first it is build for all the VW cars,like, store the cars there, then when the person comes to collect his brand new car, they will get the car from there.
but now it's like a carpark.

just imagine how much it will cost. MADNESS LOR. MADNESS.

i sound like i'm promoting the thing.

alright!!
blog again soon!

★ Wednesday, February 11, 2009 AT 4:45 PM
MY CURRENT LIFE IS DA BOMB

★ Tuesday, February 10, 2009 AT 5:09 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALLLLL!!!!
loves(:

after school, chiong-ed down to sayang's place.
WOOHOO!
it was a SURPRISE party for dal!!!!
sayang planned it all, for dal's 18.
nice nice, saw quite a number of old friends and all.
some of xlb was there too. so yeah.

had fun play and all chit chat, and never go home.
hehehe. only came home today!

and now!?
GOING SHOPPING!!!

oh well...hehehe.

soooo many things going on.

respect is something which one gotta earn.
and not just get it with a snap of an finger.
want that respect? EARN IT.

your status means something.
but your respect does not come with it.

i was suppose to blog this yesterday. for my monday.
but well, yesterday i had to go out, so type halfway and went off.
then i came home and i fell sick.
so yes.

nothing about tuesday.
nothing that i need to REPORT about.

goodbye.
youwhoknowarei

★ Sunday, February 08, 2009 AT 4:46 PM
i am soo freaking tired now.
and its only 4pm.

i woke up freaking early.

alright! anyway!
a really hectic morning!

loads of things to do, rush, walk, snap.
well cause today it's my uncle's wedding shoot!

obviously i was not the photographer.
but i did snap some.

this is just 1 out of the 300plus.

so yup.

i'm really tired now.

anyway, not really in my best mood, thanks to my foolishness.

so CIAO!

★ Saturday, February 07, 2009 AT 11:26 PM
HEY GUYS AND GIRLS!
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NO SPAM don't worry. this is purely for my SCHOOL PROJECT.
thanks thanks!!

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★ AT 8:57 PM
Thank you daddy for buying me a Bulgari ring(:
it's for saving childrens(:
and the price is my favorite number! yayness!
THANK YOU DADDY!!!!!!

i.love.this.ring.OMG!

freaking nice design. I KNOW!!!! on the left is the box, then the paper bag, then the authenticity card, then the receipt holder.
thats the lil bag with the ring inside it!
the ring is on top of the box. yes yes, the font IS the same as what you see on the box.
i could not capture the whole design. but in the ring it just says that S. Bulgari and followed by the design, you see on the left of the box? that 1 whole line from top to bottom.
yeah, that is after the word.
ring ring ring ring!

IT IS SOOOO FREAKINLY NICE. AND I LOVE IT.
and please! it is not as 'ex' as i thought!

a real, like, normal Bulgari ring cost like, 2000 plus!
no shit man!!!!!!!
i can buy like 2 SLRS!
freakingggggggggggg crap.

well, i got this ring thanks to hehehehe, Bulgari.
they wanted their stuff QUICK, and URGENT! so dad had to qing shou deliver them to the shops! so i help daddy!
AND HA HA HA. I GOT A REWARD OUT OF IT!
okay, i know it seems weird, like, call chase urgent deliver.
simple term, dad shipped their stuff in.

okay, but heck.
OMGOMGOGM, THE RING FREAKING NICE. I LOVE ITTTTTTTTTT.
LIKE, SOOO FREAKING NICE.
hahaha.
even if you disagree, WHATEVER! omgogmogmgomgomg.

THANK YOU DADDDDY!!

daddy is super sweet, he ALWAYS gets things for sis and me when we want it. awwww.

and and, THANKS MUMMY!
for a snake skin looking sandals she bought for me!
yay yay!

okayyyyy. gotta gooo!
gotta wake up at like 4.30am!
BYEBYE!
ILOVEYOUVERYVERYMUCHLESP.

★ Friday, February 06, 2009 AT 11:14 PM
i woke up at 10am in the morning.
amazingly early.

but guess what!

i like the feeling of waking up early, cause like, i can do soo much more in the day, and like, i can really spend my hours well, rather than like, sleeping them away. HAHAHA.
so yeahhh.

i guess, i don't want to blog about the details of my days anymore.
but more of the overall kinda crap.
and not like, 11pm watch tv kinda thing.
i actually remembered saying this same thing before.
wth lah me.
*please stop talking or typing and just GET TO IT.*

orh okay.

but well, i guess i'm learning alot from this module. Entrepreneurship.
besides learning how to start a business, like what are the factors to consider before starting a business.

bdp said i'm like, smitten-ed by my teacher.

but well, yeah, to a certain extend, cause i felt that she is very very motivative and inspiring.

but well, i am a very 'kong dai wa' person. HAHAHAHAHA.
only know how to talk.
like, i want this and that and this and that and this and that.
but never done. HA.HA.HA
shut up vanns.

OKAY!

but well, i do dream big. but well, i guess i gotta work towards it.
hehe. and stop thinking like, POP EVERYTHING I WANT APPEARS. haha.

----------------------------------------

friends are easy to come by.
good friends are easy to come by.
close friends are hard to come by.
bestfriends are harder to come by.
true friends are hardest to come by.

where are you at now?

if you think that your close friends are actually your close friends.
think twice

if you think your bestfriend(s) is/are really your bestfriend.
think twice

if you think your true friends are really your true friends.
think twice

some may not be what you really think they are. but some are.

careful with your friends, careful with yourself.

when i thought my bestfriends* is gonna be forever, i was wrong.
i'm not here to 'show off' or to announce to anyone anything.
or here to pin point anyone, or my ex-bestfriends. nope i am not here to do that.
i'm not gonna mention who they are.

it's just a lesson i learn, it is just part of life.

i admit that through a bad experience, i changed.

i use to have ALOT ALOT ALOT of faith in my friends.
but it somehow dropped. just being frank here.

i am not gonna stop myself from having friends, or close friends, good friends or even another bestfriend.

but well, i don't want to cause both parties as in my bestfriend and myself like, in the end break this very special friendship we hold.

i know i'm making like, bestfriendship or even friendship sound like a relationship.
but i guess to me, it is a relationship, thats why i take my friends very seriously, and i treasure them ALOT.

when i talk about relationship with a friend, it is a friendship relationship.
not a boyfriend girlfriend thing.

yeah, gettit.

i got this off a web and it reads, 'People talk about the true value of friendship without knowing what it stands for.'

i agree.
people take friendship way tooooo lightly.
they don't know the true VALUE and just take it as nothing.

alright, i shall stop here.
everything said is purely MY opinion.
if you beg to differ. yeah, i won't kill you.
everyone have their own way of expressing and way of using the word 'friends' or 'friendship'

alright! goodbye
and goodnight.
i need my sleep!

*i believe in ONLY 1 BESTFRIEND. why i use bestfriendS is cause i had 2 bestfriend. at 2 very different phrase of my life.

p.s: MY EYE BAGS AND ALL THE PUFFY CRAP THINGS ARE GOING AWAY! THANKS TO GARNIER LIGHT! BRIGHTENING EYE ROLL-ON!

it is HONESTLY, WORKING. AND IT'S FABBBBBBULOUS!

p.s.s: BDP! I DRANK THAT LITTLE BIT OF COKE, AND I AM BURPING AND MY TUMMY IS UPSET EVER SINCE )))):

okay, for those who don't know, i DON'T take CARBONATED drinks AT ALL.
and my drink i had HAD SUGAR IN IT! like, i hate my oolong char or my green tea with sugar! but this one HAD! and i taste like !@#$%^&* so i took a little bit if coke, like a sip, and i'm like, dying.

★ Thursday, February 05, 2009 AT 2:08 PM
i just realise i did not blog yesterday.

well, it's just school school school school home.
wait, satay then home.
tock was super discipline yesterday, she did not buy satay with me.
amazing.

BDP, gave me my belated christmas present.
AND I LOVE IT!
THANKS DEAR(:

she got me a globe!
with our picture inside!
shake it and those glitter stuff will fly around. so nice.
i hope that my present to you is still alive. hahaha.

i chopped up my Oolong Char bottle last night.
sliced it up with my pen knife.
i'm officially addicted to tea with no sugar.
like, sugarless jap green tea
sugarless oolong char
i love the no sugar taste!
now BDP thinks i'm plain weird.

it's thursday, i've got no school.
and i'm rotting at home
my parents are gonna go out after work, and i don't know if i should join them or i should not.
one hand i am way too lazy to go out, the other?
well, kept a secret.

i am getting soo bored, till i don't know how to spell the word bored.

i'm soo bored!
i wanna cry NOW! :'(

at times in life, you just got to be a little stubborn
you just got to be a lil tough
you just got to stand up for yourself
prove your point
everyone needs to grow up
everyone needs to learn how to be an young adult
a man's pride can take over him.

★ Tuesday, February 03, 2009 AT 2:08 PM
Whats the definition of Friendship?

Friendship is the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring all right out just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful friendly hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and, with a breath of comfort, blow the rest away.

by, Dinah Mulock Craik, 1859

so i guess at the end of the day, friends are not friends after all.
some will be, some will not be.
keeping that is worth, and blowing the rest away.

woah.

i read shalinda's blog.
and she said there, that her dad is together with this group of friends consisting 6 of them, for like 30 years and still counting. and wondering what they went through.
that, left me thinking.
what they went through, why did they not give up on this friendship they hold?
and, what made them stay together?
like that Dinah said, like, did they actually have a group of more than 6 of them?
then, slowly dropping and blowing away those who are not worthy of the friendship??
hmmmm.

as it's true that, men and woman are different (as quoted from shalin's blog)
but is it possible for woman to hold that same of a friendship as guys do?
like, though we're different, but why can't woman be different from other woman. keeping the friendship that each other holds.
treasure them, never to let go of it, knowing that 'hey. we love each other. lets stay together. through thick and thin'
woman can hold that too right?
but well, i believe we can.
but it is whether we want to.

i'm not here not to like, point fingers at anyone.
everyone in this words, got really different thinking,
how each one sift their friends out.
some worth the keep, some don't.
some see it's worth the keep now, some time later, sift them away.
some don't wanna keep any friends, some wants to keep all.
some fades away to the back, some shine forward.
some carry on with life, some hangs on with the past.

i was just thinking about this for the past 2 nights.
and stumbled upon the post shalin wrote.

i think to myself.
if a friend truly loves you.
he/she will want the best for you.
he/she will never turn his/her back against you.

as i'm speaking about friends.
a few of my friends names, just like, POP into my head.
(in random order)
Les. P., Sayang, Milkshake, BDP, Kakee, One Decade, Shalin, Sophia, Kerrie, Madeline, Jasmine, Cherie, Demelza.

we all know each other for awhile now.
some years some months.
then i start to think.
worth the keep, or not worth the keep.
it's soo soo soo hard.
because all i think of is KEEP KEEP KEEEEEP!
cause we've been together for a long time.
though troubles and problems have like, face EVERY single one of us before.
have faced every single one of my friends listed, problems i face with them, problems they face with me.
but well, i felt some problems, draw this friendship tighter, draws this friendship more worthy to keep. knowing that problems did not stop the friendship.
but, there's bound to be like, friendship which was broken.
up till now, i feel like, if whoever can break that friendship, i can't.
cause, problems are the one that brings people closer together.
but well, i've always thought that way.
until i was proven wrong myself.

so what now?
i could have this really strong friendship with, my kakee
and suddenly, over a problem, we break this friendship.
but to me, it's the problem which draws us closer to each other.

okay, now you say be thinking and saying, 'NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE YOU IDIOT'
yeah, i know.
everyone is different, everyone have their own mind of thinking. trueeeeee.
but well, have you ever get this feeling like, WHY CAN'T PEOPLE SEE FORM WHERE I'M SEEING!
yeah, if you get what i mean. you ehh, get what i mean.

i can't expect everyone to see the samee thing as i see.
so i guess, thats why, in my life, friends comes and friends goes.

i'm not gonna be all like, I'VE GOT A 100% PERFECT LIFE and all.
cause, please, i don't.
so lets just face this reality that no ones life is 100% perfect.
but if you think yours is, good for you, i respect that.

well, i'll never say i've got a 100% perfect life.
cause, honestly, i don't.
and i don't want to pretend that i have.
cause it will look fake.
and i wanna be real, not fake.

yes, so my friends comes, and they go too!
i won't say all goes, but well, a number of them.
but hey, life don't stop for me right?
i'll get down and all, yup! true.
but well, i gotta get over it.
i am not gonna miss you out the fun things in life just cause i'm down.
so just buck up, pull myself together.
carry on with life.
and just be a happy person.
be contended with what you have.
if you've got a million friends, be contended.
if you've got 1 friend, be contended.
don't ever be greedy.
don't let greed take over your true self.

i wanna live my life as plain and as simple as possible.
if i'm rich, good for me.
if i'm poor, do something about it, unless i wanna stay being poor.
am i contended being poor?
HELL NO.
so, work on it, do something.
but never be greedy.

i realise i am like, side tracking alot.
okay. back to peng you.

i'm just gonna live my life to the fullest everyyyyyyday.
i am gonna feel contended about the friends i've got!
friends will not necessarily always be friends.
but well, there rare new friends.

and all i can say is, be wise about your friends.
don't let it all out, unless you know it's time too.
cause, when one regret man, it sucks.

okay, i say again.
this post is purely, not to offend anyone.
it is 100% my own opinion.
love it or hate it.
up to you(:
love me or hate me?
up to you too(:

okay, goodbye!!!!!!!!

oh yah, and, what keeps a TRUE friendship together?
i say love.

★ Monday, February 02, 2009 AT 11:55 PM
bee said i'm obsessed with my teacher.
maybe i am, cause she is very inspiring.
i felt.

okay, lesson was alright and stuff.

my teacher loves Kimora just like i do.
haha.

i don't know why, but this word keeps like, ringing in my head ):
hypocritical ):

i'm trying to knock the word out of my head ):

i GOT TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST!
I GOT TO!

1. HUMANS ARE FREAKING HUMANS.
2. HUMANS HAVE A LIFE.
3. WHY DO WE REPORT OUR LIFE?! WHY?!

okay. pissed and OFF.

bye.

★ AT 12:11 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST GRAND PAPAPAPA!!!
I LOVE YOU GONG GONG!

well today was a full day of gong gong's day!

was at gong's house from lunch, and mahjong-ed till like, 5 plus.
went back home to get ready, change and get ready to go dinner!!

yeah, i know, i'm looking retarded and odd.
anyway, whats sissssssy papapapa mamamama and myself!
yes, my sister DID cut her hair. yes yes.

how cool can the auntie popos look man.
to answer your question, which is, WHY DO YOU CALL THEM AUNTIE POPO?!
answer: they are my grandparents friends. my parents and cousin parents call them AUNTIE. and we (younger gen) cannot be calling AUNTIE also, so my grandmother said, AUNTIE POPO. since they are like, neither auntie nor popo. so just combine (:
grandpapa with a Peranakan, Indian and Chinese outfit(:
so cool can, they are like, so funky. haha.

and now for a VERY zilian picture of myself.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay, enough.

GOODBYE!

★ ADVERTS.